In an earlier episode of Real. Raw. Authentic., psychologist Caroline Middelsdorf sat down with Ingmar de Gooijer, founder of Magnolia, to discuss the science, safety, and potential of professionally guided programs with psilocybin-containing truffles. Together, they explored what these experiences involve, who they may be appropriate for, and why preparation and integration are essential parts of the process.

But understanding the theory is one thing. Experiencing it yourself is something else entirely.

In this follow-up episode, Caroline takes you inside her own guided experience at Magnolia. Not as a sensational story, but as a psychologist—and someone with a personal history of trauma—who wanted to understand, from the inside, what so many people are talking about.

This episode illustrates that a program with psilocybin-containing truffles is not a quick fix, but for some people it can become part of a profound process of self-exploration and personal growth. Throughout the conversation, the emphasis remains on safety, professional guidance, and the importance of integration after the experience.

In this episode, you’ll discover:

Why Caroline decided to participate in a program with psilocybin-containing truffles.
What the preparation process at Magnolia looked like.
What the experience felt like from her personal perspective.
The emotions, challenges, and insights that emerged.
How she interprets the experience through the lens of trauma psychology.
Who such an experience may be suitable for—and who it may not be.
Why integration is ultimately the key to creating lasting change.

Read our article about Ingmar de Gooijer’s appearance on Caroline Middelsdorf’s Real. Raw. Authentic. podcast.